Oh ((((((((ZOO))))))))). I want to give you so many hugs.

First of all, you DID it. I know how triggering this was for you, and you did it. And like Jexa said (and like my T told me when I went through something similar), this is for your healing, not your destruction. This is you taking care of you. This is doctors helping you. This is you being in charge of your health. This is you taking care of Big Zoo and Little Zoo. This is now, and now you are doing just what you are supposed to do. I am so proud of you for moving through that fear.

I don't even know what to say about T right now. It feels like she picked a really bad moment to tell you to call someone else for emotional support...that obviously could have waited until after you had recovered a bit from today. I find her behavior super confusing and I'm really REALLY sorry.

Hang in there, zoo. All of this is hard, and you are doing it. Let yourself heal, be gentle with you, and know that you are loved