Evangelista,

What you've described sounds like the ultimate nightmare. I'm so sorry for all you've been through. Having to take someone off of life-support is one of the worst decisions a person has to make period, but you had to do this on top of so many other issues. No wonder you feel confused.

Have you tried seeing a professional T to help you sort through the conflicting emotions you must have for this man, who is your father?

Hugs,

Jane (EJ)