Dear Siljie,
I am sorry it was so uncomfortable but I am very glad you feel good about it afterward!

The first session is awkward (why would it NOT be?!) but feeling comfortable with the T and that they want to listen to you is sooo important.
P.S. I didn't have the best experience with my first T so I am trying a new one this week and I am really nervous about the first session also - and I am YEARS older than you

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