I know there is really no right answer to this question but I am very anxious that with my second attempt at therapy I need to express myself and my concerns better. I feel like to get him to take me seriously and not feel dismissed again I need to somehow get myself to stop acting so nonchalant during the first session as a result of anxiety and be more specific. However, part of why I am seeing someone is I do not really know what is specifcally eating at me and causing most of the anger, irritability, sadness, anxiety, tears, problems concentrating, low energy, binge eating, etc. Should I just list all those things? It seems that would sound like a feel sorry for me list when in actuality I am afraid I will not be understood or listened to so I want to help them understand as much as possible from the get go so I will get the help I really need.

I am still not sure if I am seeing the right person but I did find a Pdoc who apparently does analysis. No Ph.D.s of that orientation were listed in my city except for a female and with the issues with my mother I want to avoid a female like the plague. However, I am afraid if I do not express myself well enough he will decide not to see me and then I will be out of luck in finding anyone who can truly help. Also, I am in my mid-30s so will they even feel depth therapy is too much too late?