I just wanted to come by to thank you all you guys. Your thoughts and wisdom have really helped me in coming to a pretty ok place with this. Mwah! Yes, still terrified. No doubt about that. But taking your advice to prepare and control what I can to help with stability really is helping. It's still terror, yes, but it's... like it's not in total control anymore, if that makes any sense. Will I completely flip out over the last straw? I don't know. Probably. But I'm trying to not think about that. After all, with all that has happened here, in a place that I love, the last straw is not exempt from happening either(!) I guess it will always be that I wonder how a major breakdown will fall out. But it could happen anywhere. (And granted, with all the unknowns, it is more likely to happen there, but...) That may not sound good, but it's a better perspective than it was(!)

You guys are the best!!!