It is just so nerve racking & scary. It feels like I am going into a job interview & like I have to say all the right things for it to work out right and not flounder off in left field again. Maybe I am just really gun shy from the first experience. Or, maybe I always feel dismissed in general as my father always told me to just get over things and that he didn't want crying in our house (last time I checked little girls cried occasionally but whatever dad ).

I DK. Anyway, thanks for the support. I REALLY hope I have good news in a day or two.