accept= to regard as truth is one definition. so hard to accept when reality differs from the perception of what life ought to be. but in accepting, then change can occur.

while i do not have any suggestions for you, know that i care and am glad to see the direction of your journey as it leads to growth of self. awareness, acceptance, change, all of these lead to a peaceful life, one that often seems unattainable at times. while there are no quick fixes in life, small changes can greatly affect the outcome of your day. as you find what works for you, life will become easier overall.

best of luck to you as you learn to do what is needed for your safety and well being.