(((((Tree))))) All that matters, right now, is that you got through it. You've got something truly, honestly beautiful with T that few other people experience.

It will be over soon, Tree, and like others have said, you'll be better for having gone through it. It is scary, and T knows that. He'll only go as far as you will, at the pace you decide.

Big gentle hugs - you've had a hard day and now it's time to relax as best as possible.