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Originally Posted by Open Eyes
Wow, you do have so much to sort out here. How can you possibly control all of this situation? Now you are dealing with a woman who is extremely unstable. I even wonder if she really loves you or just needs you to resolve her issues. The fact that she could not reciprocate love for you shows that she is way too self absorbed in confusion to give to anyone.
(Shortened for viewing purposes) -Ronn
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I do understand your point of view, and no the children aren't in the way. If social services would have let me, I would have taken all 4 of them. I love my kids more than anyone can believe. But I leave myself wondering if I should run and recap. I know this is a selfish decision and a weak one at that, but sometimes I cannot stop my own thoughts. I like to think I can control what they say, and I like to also think I'm attempting my best to become stronger thru this; but sometimes i have moments of weakness. This is really all it is. My knees are buckling, and I just need someone (mainly my wife) to give me some encouragement.
I know she is not all there mentally now, because of the stress on her, and I don't want to give up, never! I'm not that kinda person. But everyone knows weakness will lead to other things that aren't as "good" as others.
But no, don't misunderstand what my own weaknesses with my feeling for my children. And I have done everything I can to give my son the best home he can have, and as far as he has shown me, he's happy as he can be here with me.