Well, guess what? My therapist has given me an assignment. Guess what it is??? "Why do I fight acceptance and forgiveness?" Thank God she is not harping on that stupid forgiveness thing anymore. HA!! She will not give me a break.

I cannot answer something that I don't know much about!! I don't understand this forgiveness crap at all. What exactly am I forgiving myself for??

Why is she staying on this topic? Am I really stuck in this phase of unforgiveness with myself?? I need some HELP!! We may end up talking about this for years if I cannot figure this out. I want to move on, but I don't know how!

You may as well put trigonometry in front of me and ask me to solve it. It ain't happenin' because I don't know how to do it! I don't understand it. This is actually hurting my brain! It also makes me really angry. I feel like I am expected to do something that I can't do.

Leave me alone!! That is what I want to tell her. Is that the voice of my inner child? Am I being stubborn and belligerant? No! I am just getting tired of being expected to work on things that I don't understand and I don't know how to do. I feel like a failure when it comes to this assignment. I just can't seem to pass this test!