I'm not confused about what to take. I WILL get back on schedule tomorrow including taking my scheduled doses tonight (I've been taking my nighttime meds to help me sleep).

Instead of waking up and getting dressed (I do shower and dress everyday) and then facing the day tomorrow, I will get out of bed when i first open my eyes at daylight and take my meds, if i get dressed at that point or go back to bed at least i won't be in a cycle of waiting to long and then not wanting to take them. i think in general i need to establish a better habit of taking them right after i dress rather than checking my email first because that always sucks me in with time and emotions and then it gets even later.

gooberhead may have been a good call because i had a peanut butter sandwich for dinner tonight. i was able to eat a little better than my unsuccessful attempt this morning.

>>Use caution with this new friend and your developing feelings. that is going to be so hard because i already very much value his friendship. we've been talking about this more, a few emails this evening, so at least the setting is very very clear with no expectations. unfortunately emotions don't play by the rules of logic and that;s what gets me into trouble. i've been straightforward about that with him (i've already shared the whole story concerning my disappointment two years ago) so at least all the cards are on the table from the get-go this time.

wish me luck and strength.

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-- Dave
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