wow zoo, you have been so strong and inspiring throughout all of this!! There is only so much anyone can stand and I think you have given your T amble chances to put things right but she keeps changing the rules and sends so many mixed messages that it's impossible to keep up with her and you shouldn't have to as a client.
I cannot believe she rang and left another voicemail saying the same stuff just to rub salt in the wounds when you already were upset enough to decide to end therapy.

It took a lot of guts to leave the message you did. It was very respectful and also straight forward about why you wanted to end. I can undersand how in some way it probably feels like a relief to not have to wait for her to upset you again but also very sad too. Your T really let you down and its ok to be sad, angry and to also change your mind if you want. Take one day at a time. I do think you need at least a break from this T but ending and finding someone else would also probably be a positive move also.

Therapy is meant to be a support to help you in your life but it doesn't seem like this has been the case for a long time with your therapist, therapy shouldn't have to be so hard and it shouldn't be about reacting to Ts ever changing emotions.

I am just so sorry things couldn't be repaired after the rupture but it was not from a lack of trying