Oh, I know...I'm trying not to make too much of it really. I'm feeling a little more distance from it tonight, but it did make me catch my breath. I remember when I was young, maybe 7 years old?...and a great aunt of mine had died. When my parents were getting ready to go to the funeral, I remember saying, "how come you guys get all the fun?" Not really understanding, of course, that someone had died. All I really knew was that my parents were getting dressed up and going out while I had to stay home.