But last week she came on strong about ME being there for my little parts so I panicked. She said she will be there with me so I don't know why I'm panicking about it.

I think that tomorrow I will tell her that I have to draw myself in the heart where I drew her with my "child part", even though I don't want to. I HAVE to learn how to take care of her because it hurts too much to know my T won't always be there. I need to do both. Accept my T's caring/love for me, and learn how to give it to myself.