i just wanted to share that i didnt break down at work today,i know it sounds stupid but these days it is a big deal.my esr came and checked in with me and called me sweety and all like she usually does so she isnt mad at me like i thought.she was letting me know that the distric mgr is going to be getting involved with what is going on .they are fighting to get me help over in my department.i was even able to talk to her some .like saying hi and i'm ok and a little about what i want for help and i didnt panic or break down .i have a huge weekend comming up whare i will be working 10 hrd days non stop and than it will be over.the place will be calm aggain and back to normal . hears to hoping i stay calm or numb or whatever it is untill monday