sorry, Sannah, didn't realize that's what you were asking. I texted her after we talked, when she was abrupt and cold, and that text said "did I call you too much, too many times?" and then I called her a while (like a half hour?) later and left a message saying essentially "hi, it hurt my feelings that you didn't ask how the procedure went, and I know you're not going to want to talk about this but I'm tired of constantly messing up, constantly putting my foot in it again and again. I'm done"