looking at it that way, Sannah, I imagine it's possible my T was kind of taken aback and surprised when I left the message saying basically, I'm out. I have no doubt that her perception of what went on is vastly different from my own. If I was in a different place in therapy and in life I would go back to see her and try to reconcile the two, but I'm not. I'm here and right here and now I don't need a T who is a jousting partner.