I have screwed everything up in my life I think I have lost my best friend who I confide in I don't know what I did he was the main thing in my life that has kept me from cutting now I have hurt him somehow I don't know how. No one trusts me to do anything I give up, I can't deal with this I want to cut more than ever I can't do anything right I need to cut to let it out. All day my friends and family have been calling me a ***** and I've had to take it with a smile I just can't do it anymore I don't know what I have done wrong geez I must be stupid to not even know that how horrible a person am I. Maybe I should fulfill everyones wishes and dissappear. I'm not doing anyone any good I'm just causing everyone pain that's all I ever do. Maybe a few little cuts where no one can see, it'll at least ease my need, hey all I care about is myself anyway right. that's what everyone thinks. Sorry for wasting your time.