Aww Anomaly! Im sorry your hurting! Please Hold onto to that man! You sound like you have someone truly amazing and you deserve that!, I know you are struggling thinking why should he have to put up with the crazy, but he chose to be with you ! Knowing full well your disorder, so sounds to me he chose to be with you knowing what he was getting into, thats a special guy So Im really hoping you guys make it, you deserve happiness. Im on the other side, I think my guy friend has bipolar, and I think he feels the same way as you . He has said you can do so much better than me.,trust me. Im not going anywhere and im trying to show him exactly what your bf does, that i can support him. I hope he gives me the chance