I feel the same way sometimes. When I actually took medication and was able to control my anxiety I was fine. I came off of it a few months ago and thought I was doing okay until just recently. My panic attacks are full-blown once again and it's absolutely driving me crazy. I don't mind going out but I don't like going alone and I hate being alone anywhere. I hate when I get like this because it's almost as if my body has completely shut down and I hate the strain it puts on me and my family. I hope things get better for you. I'm new to this site so it's taking me a little while to figure it out but feel free to message me anytime if you wanna talk. It helps me to talk about it. I feel like I'm not alone when I do, but it's hard to talk to family because they just don't understand.