I know what you mean. For years I was uncomfortable talking about it to anyone. I still don’t like when people mention scars. I try to use humor to shake things up but most of the time I still feel that knot inside when someone asks about how I got a specific scar. I will let people I don’t know see my scars, I don’t care, but my T that’s a different story, probably because I’m just trying to stop and I still have fresh scars.

It isn’t your fault that she switched jobs. I can understand missing a T, it hurts when someone you have trusted is gone. It is good to talk about it though even though it might seem like it comes across whiny and attention seeking, to your T is is neither. Your T is there to help you and can only do so based on what you tell them.