i hear ya, i hate being in love also. i also feel weak, i prefer to do the rejecting then be rejected, may be why i dont love easy. i dont like men to be clingy or to emotional it irritates me so much, i just leave. im been chatting with a guy back in Germany, who i met the summer 2008, i was there. and i do like him a lot, i cant bring myself to say "ich liebe dich" - i love you, in english to him, i want to, but i hate the online thing, it feels wierd and unatrual. i do plan to see him next month, but idk, honest im scared i will fall for him and leave life hier in the states behind just for him. that is not like me, i am a student atm and my career has always been a head of any man.. i am seen as a strong woman, perhaps hard to get to no, and not easy to love so this is tough and if your anything like me, you will agree that maybe its just better not to feel, sometimes i wish i didnt feel things like love, honest, i show anger better (and not just because im German lol) and i get angry at all this love crap.

good luck with the new therapist, i dont see one, perhaps i shld lol hope your relationships improve, or you just come to love yourself and 86 relationships altogether, all you have is you in the end, make sure you do you right.

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