I know how you feel. Hang in there. I believe that God does hear us even if our circumstances say otherwise. He cares so much for his children that he does collect their tears in a bottle. He is very forgiving because he is perfect love. I try to focus each day on the positive things in my life cuz right now, there aren't a whole lot of them going on. Just the fact that I breath is a miracle each day. Anything positive we do does help us to get more positive things going on. I will be praying for you and your situation. Pray for me too.