So, I have a question whether or not something would be considered SI or not? And whether or not I should tell my pdoc about it? I'm not sure if what I have a problem with is SI or something else...though I have come to the conclusion that it is a problem.

Is picking scabs just to see blood SI or not?

I mean I'll get a bug bite and I'll scratch it until it bleeds, then when it scabs over I will pick it just to see it bleed. Eventually, I'll pick it so much that something the size of an ant bite will turn into a sore that is about an inch or more in diameter. I'll do the same thing with pimples on my face. I will pop them and watch them bleed and then start picking at the scab when it forms. Or if my cat scratches me, I will pick at the scratch scab and turn the scratch into a gash.

I had a scratch turned gash on my upper arm once when I was sick with sinus stuff and at the walk-in health clinic. The nurse taking my blood pressure asked what happened. I said my cat scratched me. Then he commented that it looked more like a mountain lion scratched me.

Is what I am doing SI? Or is it something else? I'm embarrassed admitting this even here (but at least I can be "anonymous" here). I can't imagine admitting this to my pdoc. Should he know?

My parents when I visit them will ask me why I scratch my scabs (they can tell I do). I get embarrassed to admit I like picking them, find it fun, and like to see blood, so instead I tell them that they itch (they really don't) and I scratch them in my sleep. So, I guess they look bad enough that other people can tell I scratch them. Though my pdoc has never asked about them.

Any advice from anyone?