Yeah, I was trying to put into words (again) my feelings about therapy. I have such a push and pull. My T is very aware of my struggles and I constantly pepper her with questions and concerns like,
"Should I be doing this (therapy)?";
"Now, tell me again, why do I need to pay attention to emotions?";
"Really, now, aren't I just an emotional hypochondriac?";
"So, I still don't get it, what exactly is the 'process' I'm supposed to trust?";
"Tell me what to do!!";
"I think I'm getting worse since beginning therapy";
"Am I the dumbest client you've ever had? I just don't 'get' it.";
"What? I'm supposed to pay attention to how my BODY feels?";
"I feel weird talking only about myself";
"I'm ticked off that you've made me dependent on you. What do you have to say for yourself?"
"I know you hate me. I know you're going to terminate me at any time."
"Is it really possible to change?"
"I'm feeling lost."