No, this makes complete sense! I actually read it and was thinking "Yes! Exactly!" I feel the exact same way. Some sessions are really productive and then some I leave feeling like it was completely pointless. It's pretty frustrating. I've found it has helped to email T before session to tell her what I want to talk about/what we need to talk about(not assertive enough to just tell her when I get there), but sometimes I just don't know what I want to talk about. Idk, this is rambling now, but I totally understand, and its really frustrating after those non productive sessions.