If you aren't seeing a therapist or psychologist then start as they can help with those feelings. I still feel some embarrassment and ask why I don't work I say I have a chronic problem. You would be amazed how many people assume it is a back problem. If they press me I say depression keeps me from being able to work which is true...it wasn't the mania. My hair is turning white and I am almost 56 so soon I might start saying I took early retirement. Finally I don't like to tell people I have Bipolar because there are so many misconceptions about it although I have spoken at Nami groups on bipolar without embarrassment. Remember, not everyone needs to know.