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Originally Posted by learning1
I'm really impressed you actually ask all this stuff instead of just thinking it  . You said you and your t laugh when you repeat these questions. I can imagine having a sense of humour about them sometimes but sometimes they must feel like serious questions. Have you gotten the reassurance you wanted when you first asked? |
Oh, my T and I have a wonderful relationship. We can laugh but also explore deeply my feelings. She listens attentively and it seems like she understands. I feel very validated by her. She accepts that I challenge her constantly but I also try to have an open mind and will try some things that she suggests - like Sand Tray, etc., that my logical analytical mind initially was very skeptical about.
With her I have been able to take a giant leap in courage and do and say things I may never have been able to do if we didn't have a strong and safe therapeutic relationship. I feel I can almost say anything to her. I've allowed myself to feel totally 'stupid' in her presence. I tell her I'm feeling embarrassed before I reveal some things. I try to be as honest as I possibly can.
Even so, there are places I still cannot 'go' with her. Courage doesn't arrive in one fell swoop. It comes in increments. I don't know if I'll every be able to let her into the deepest chamber of my heart but it's not because I don't trust her but because I am not able to face my own shame.