SAWE: Thank you. It's hard for me to see T "only" as a guide for my RL. The needs/wants get in the way, and that's where the conflict is.

She sent me my email today. I had written that it feels like she's rejecting me, and she said she understands. She thinks doing EMDR with the hurt parts will reallly help so that it becomes "less and less about being rejected by me and more feelings of peace in your real life." Then she said it's a slow process and we'll keep working on it together. She also said that "our strong relationship is a good foundation to do the more difficult therapeutic work."

In another email I asked if she thought how hard therapy was lately means it's progress but she didn't answer that.

I don't know what to think. I have peace in my RL but not in my therapy life! Therapy triggers the fantasies but I know it's transference. I'm still confused about it all; my brain can't make sense of my problem.

ECHOES: Thank you!

sunrise: My parts sense there is a Self, but I'm still not quite sure what the Self is supposed to be. T says it's calm and can lead the parts. I have to ask her more about that.

jbmomg: thank you I'm trying but it's so slow....i've never cried in therapy either.