I have no idea. I am so torn over what to do. I did set up my ride to get there, so I have the option. I really think I will hate myself for caving in and going after I felt so, so strongly that I was done.
My brain is going like this:
don't go, because you said you were done
don't go, because it doesn't feel safe
go, and give her hell
go, and apologize for everything

It's like, strong/weak, sad/angry, resigned/desperate, all the space of a few minutes, over and over.