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Night*Blossum
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Default Jun 17, 2011 at 02:20 PM
 
Well a few days ago I went on this site looking for a part-time job that I could do during the summer. As I was looking at available jobs I noticed that I didn't want a job that had to do with me talking to a lot of people. It wasn't till recently that I figured out that I had Avoidant Personality Disorder. When I read the symptoms they all seemed to make scene. Though I haven't told anyone of the discovery of this. I'm afraid my mother would say that I'm just shy, buts it's much deeper than that. Sometimes I don't like meeting new people even if it's just for a few minutes. I'm afraid my mind will too preoccupied with questions like,"What if I mess up on something and they think I'm incapable of doing my job? What if this person is having a bad day and is going to take it out on me? What is I stumble on my words and they think I'm stupid or slow?" I also think about blushing if I do something wrong. All these things pop-up in my mind. Having ADHD doesn't make it easier either. I'm going to the therapist soon and I was planning on telling her of what I might have though, if she tells my mother I'm not sure how she's going to react to all this. My mother already thinks I have ADHD, PTSD, and anxiety issues. How is she going to react when I tell her I might have AvPD????

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