zoo, I WOULD go with you, if I could!

because her message (and I only know her words, you know the whole T) says she is still there and still willing to get through these things with you. So, that sounds good, but I can see where it doesn't jive with your feelings about what has gone on in your therapy previously.

I think what's important is how YOU feel. Maybe she says she is still there but if you don't feel it, then her words are unhelpful. If she says she is still willing to get through these things with you, but you don't feel that or she doesn't help in ways you need her to help, then her words are just words.

All that said, I would still go. But that is me and my commitment to not quit abruptly like I have done so many times.

Do you think at this point that therapy isn't helpful?
Or that T isn't helpful?