I feel worried.

Let me tell you about my mum.

She thinks she is fat, but she is very thin. She feels sick, because she doesn't enjoy sex, she is having relationship troubles with my Dad. She feels old and ugly. Her kids, us, are growing up now and she wants another kid so she can feel young again. I think she is often suicidal.

I've been trying to help her.

But i have to be so gentle, you know? She gets very anxious and angry and blames ME for her problems. When she is angry she tells me to kill myself and puts me down. I've explained to her it is projection, deflecting her own feelings about herself onto me. This helps relieve them, but IT IS NOT FAIR ON ME. I really detest it and it hurts very much.

So i am doing some things to help her.

I am sharing some of my music, things i think she would like with her, and trying to get her to explore her interests.

Note: If you wish to criticise this post, please refrain. I do not wish to be told i am imagining the way she treats me. That it is not HER but ME with the problems. Or that i am doing the wrong thing by helping her and am not capable of doing so. This is the kind of criticism which occurs here, i am aware of it.

Sometimes