((((((jexa))))))

I get being totally anxious, worried, overwhelmed, and having racing thoughts about this new T. I get looking up everything you can find about her too. My T would tell me to meditate for a few minutes to calm down, just pay attention to my breath. Can you try to relax about it any way you can? I know how hard that is, but anticipation of new experiences are usually worse than the experience itself. It will be all right! This new T will know what to do; she sounds good, and you trust your current T. In your next session, can you talk about these feelings with your T? I'm sure she'll be able to reassure you. You have time to do this with 5 sessions left.