I am a christian and suppose not to say this but I am on the brink of having no faith.God always sits there on his butt watching me suffer. How sadistic can that be. Rather it is mental or physical or even both. I am screwed up in the head and soul. Nothing sames to get better. I call myself the dark poet cause of lak of faith I have to use it in poetry. I turned to devil worship then turned to athiest.But then I became christian again and god is toying me like a puppet