to be judged and labelled by someone who isnt even a professional

for me, it makes me want to do something deeply destructive to myself

maybe that is all I deserve

If I dont "grow and change" to my OWN satisfaction, then it is a serious option for me.

How does it feel to be "treatment resistant"... and yet still be judged. It feels like ..... I don't have the words for it (that would be allowed on here anyway ...)