but, lets say you went on a date and then after the date, the guy gave you a kiss...normally, aren't you suppose to feel good about that? maybe even excited if your into the guy? butterflies...

(P.S. this hasn't happened to me... something a little different did)

when anything sexual happens to me, no matter how much I am into it or usually I'm highly NoT into it... after it or during it, all I feel is shame or guilt or uncomfortable or possibly victimized... sometimes I even just feel smothered, like there taking something from me. idk.

is there something about being an abuse survivor that makes you particulary vunerable to negative reactions after an experience, even if that experience could have been considered slightly good?

Idk. I just came up with this and really need to know...something happened..I barely even liked the guy, one thing led to another and once again...I'm just stuck.