You matter. And you shouldnt let something like PC be the deciding factor of whether or not you matter... You matter...whether there is one reply or 5, or thirty ... you matter... Surely, I know others will post right after me saying the same thing, so I will keep that brief... P.S. I know what it feels like to be triggered in regards to this... so..acknowledge that that is a feeling but, feelings aren't always necessarily true... its human to feel these things but, just know..you are important.

next, from PC to you... congratulations on opening up in group and with your T about such a difficult circumstance. that is very brave and strong of you to choose to protect those boys, even if that means facing some discomfort with your family!
damn right, those boys dont deserve abuse, many of us here know what that feels like and you are only doing the right, noble thing by discussing/making the decision you made.

And you mentioned you feel scared, sad, and weak all at once... I just want to remind you that sometimes being brave is not about getting rid of all those feelings, feelings like sadness, grief, weakness, ... A lot of brave people are people who feel those things and just do what they have to do anyway. ...

its not allowing those feelings control you to the point of giving up that makes you special... I hope/know everything works out... Sending you Blessings and Encouragement, .... JAZZY