found myself wishing my ESR was my T again today.she called me on the phone today to see how i was doing and said she was in a meeting at corporate and was bringing up the stuff that was going on with the district manager. she than talked to me about how i need to start speaking up for what i need and that she was going to get me some help and that she felt like i am being abused and that she still feels like she needs to protect me .and a bunch of other stuff this is the short version of the conversation. she just seems to get it and wants to help.I swear my T would just say you need to ask for help and just sit there and Waite knowing i cant.and would just watch me struggle and be miserable. at least my ESR is helping me ..it is so awesome when she just comes in and tells these people how it needs to be .i kind of wish i was like her.i am actually trying to behave somewhat like her .i guess it is so nice to feel somewhat taken care of instead of feeling like i am being left to fend for myself at the same time being told i need to ask for what i need.i don't know if any of this is making any sense i am kind of worked up with a bunch of thoughts running in my head and cant sleep