First of Lauru I am glad you said you were feeling ignored so people could respond to that. And I think it is a really great thing what you are doing for your nephews. They are lucky to have someone care about them enough to put them first. I'm not surprised you're feeling scared and weak because it's a lot to deal with at once and technically it's someone else's family.. I mean you know what I mean. But I don't think anyone here will say you're doing the wrong thing. It takes a lot of courage to stand up for what's right! Sending hugs!!!!