getting out IS hard! I feel so undone today and like I should still be in hospital. I am scared that I will never be the same again, as in well and able to cope with raising my children and able to think clearly and reasonably.....so very scared and hopeless feeling. I feel like I have fallen apart and cannot be put back together......
I am still so afraid of being without my H and know that right now if something were to happen to him, I am in no state to be able to handle things....and wonder how I will ever be able to do that. Who knows, even though my H is 20 years older than me and is 54 right now, he may live a long time and outlive me and we can raise the 4 kids together even though money will definitely be an issue when he has to retire in 10 years or so....
I feel so trapped and terrified.....terrified of now and even more so of the future....
Will I ever be able to feel secure and happy again? I don't know....
I can't check in with pdoc because I am changing docs.......I have to cancel my appt's with my old one and wait about 12 days to see the new one......
All I can do is slog through life right now......
anyone have any helpful suggestions for me or any reason I should try to have hope?!