yes, that has been suggested, but the baby is a year old now......
this is not postpartum, this is called 'life is too much'.....part of it is OCD, as I was diagnosed with that in the hosp. because of the obsessive thoughts about my H dying. I can't stop thinking about that......the loop is stuck in my head and I can't chase it.
I am in utter despair of being able to just let go and live.....I don't know how to live, how to handle this despair and keep functioning. The stark, bleak reality of things weighs too heavily on me.....I feel like a sword is hanging over my head and almost wish something dreadful would happen so that I can quit worrying about it and just have to deal with it.....altho I suspect that if something does happen to my H, I will have to give up the children because I don't think I am able to cope with raising them alone.....I feel like such a loser.