(((((((poetgirl)))))))

I just want to give you a million hugs I so know the overwhelmed and hopeless feeling...and the pressure of having a bunch of kids to raise and how the responsibility of that just adds to everything.

What I have learned, and what I really try to hang on to, is that my feelings will always change. Always, always, always. No matter how bad I feel right now, I will feel better. No matter how good I feel right now, I will feel worse. It's a fact of life that I've experienced over and over and over again....but when I am in the dark places, it's so hard to remember.

It's hard not knowing how it will change, or when it will change...but it WILL change. Don't give up. Give yourself a chance to heal. It really really won't always feel this overwhelming.

A few years ago, my boys were 5, 3, and 1. I started homeschooling, I had a new baby, and my dad was diagnosed with cancer and died. My three year old was diagnosed with autism. I was a big support for my parents and my H and my kids, and there was no support for me. At the end of that year, I felt so overwhelmed that I didn't even know how I could go on.

I can look back at that now and I can breathe and feel how much easier things are, even when they're incredibly hard. You will be able to look back at this time and see how strong you were to make it through it. You will learn and grow and heal. You ARE learning and growing and healing...but it's hard and it hurts and sometimes it's two steps forward, one step back.

Hang in there, pg. You are SO worth it. It won't feel like this forever.