A month and a half without urges, this is great! Any problem usually gradually goes away, so of course you still might get urges.

Anything new come up that you are struggling with? Do you understand why you didn't have urges for 1 1/2 months?

Do you have a therapist?

I'm sorry that your parents aren't good at listening to your feelings. This doesn't surprise me, however. You didn't get to SI ing by having a healthy emotional environment at home.