it only took six months!

My pdoc was able to put me with my t - I couldnt buy a call back from anyone else I contacted, until I called her, told her who recommended her and the next thing I knew - not only did I have an appointment - it was only 2 days after I called!

First visit went longer than the 50 minutes - which really flustered me. But she told me that she likes to have more time with people the first time she meets them (Wow!)

She is different from my other Ts. She doesnt freak about my issues. I dont fear that if I tell her how I really feel she will leave me or send me away... After a particular bad week as I was leaving she told me to call if I needed her, I told her I wouldnt and she stopped me, held out her hand to me when I took her hand she told me to call her if I needed her, that she would feel better knowing I would call if I needed her and then she hugged me (totally unexpected).

I have not called her -- but I have texted her -- that I didnt want to need her, that I was afraid to need her. She sent me back a text that she understood and we would just take it slow. She wants to go at my speed - which is a bit scary but comforting at the same time (I know this sounds weird).

Fingers crossed that this t and I can communicate/understand each other