<font color="purple"> Thanks hillybunnyb for the support. Being stuck here is a problem. There isn't any way out of getting out of here. Have to stay here until the lease is up. There is a way of breaking the lease, but it would cost 85% of the rent plus $150. We cannot afford that due to being on SSI. Healing is a very difficult thing. Hard to consentrate on our own stuff when there is so much caois going on outside our bedroom. So terrified to even go to the bathroom or fix something to eat when she is here. Unsure of what she will do or be acting like. Her mood can change 20 times within 5 seconds. I thought our switching was bad, but she is just such an extreme hyper person. Some of it I truly think she does for attention. She talks about SI all the time but says that she would end up being made to throw up or drink charcoal. Well if you are really serious about ending it, you wouldn't be thinking of them making you throw up or drink charcoal. She is a major attention seeker. I don't know if in my one post I posted about her illness/dx's or not. She gets so excited to get new one's all the time. They have her dx as borderline personality disorder, bi-polar, as well as narcasstic. She was even told she had a minor dx of DID. That I doubt, but at times could see, but I don't want the switching to happen in front of her etc, because she seems to copy/memic/immitate things. So I don't want her using what I have and trying to gain from it. Gain attention is what she is seeking. Well having DID doesn't gain me any type of attention that I would like. She once told me that she thrives off of caois and cannot handle her life if it doesn't have crisis in it. I can truly see that now. I gotta go run out there in a bit to take a shower. Scared to even leave the room and I gotta go out and do that. I wished she would leave and go somewhere for 30 minutes so I can do it without fear. I told her last night her b/f isn't allowed to come back over here. She said I cannot tell her who she can and cannot have over here. I am just lost. I don't know what to do. Just have major pain in my chest and an aching heart. </font>