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Originally Posted by Suratji
Oh no, Poetgirl, you just have one thing land on you after another. When did you last talk to your therapist? And when do you see her again? It seems like you should be able to have an emergency session with her. Can you call her?
Your situation has nothing to do with 'growing up'. What the heck does that mean anyways? You are working very hard to heal and it's not as easy as just 'deciding' to heal. Please be gentle with yourself. This is not your fault.
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I see her MOnday.
And it is actually about growing up, in part......I have to face that. There are a whole lot of things I need to learn how to do that I have spent my life avoiding how to do. My H has taken care of a lot of things, from the computer to the car to the finances to the cooking.....I have not taken the responsibilities I ought to have. And now, no wonder I feel overwhelmed, because I do have a lot of things to learn that I should have already learned. I do need to grow up and accept and face reality....
And if it takes my H threatening divorce to make it happen and scare the wits straight in me, then so be it. But actually it also makes me feel more depressed right now than ever and more like giving up.....I feel like I don't have the will to get up and fight. But get up, grow up I must.....
He is also going to ration my internet time since i do spend too much time online when I should be taking care of the kids and playing with them and reading with them, etc.....