Hi im sorry to hear that he took advantage of you. Must be a very painful memories that you have been pushing to the back of your mind. Im surprise he still remember your birth day after 3yrs. I don’t even remember my families birth days. Any ways reading what you wrote it seem like there’s more to the email then it looks. You said you two were close friends before he hurt you and with him remembering about your birth day must mean he still haven’t forgotten about you. You wrote

“By him emailing me just shows me that he still believes that what he did was okay.”

now, does he REALLY still believe that what he did was okay or do you believe that he still believe? How I see it, by him emailing you after 3yrs he must feel bad for what he did to you and wanted to see if he can try and make up for it. Of course how can he make up for what he did. But you never know. Then again I can be wrong. Sorry I tend to look in to things to much. Like why would he even contact you after all this time if he really believe that he didn’t do anything wrong, he wouldn’t have contact you at all I hate guys like that, I wish they would apologize for what they did and make up for it UHHHHHH piss me off. They might not be able to take back what they did but at least try to make up for it and showing me that they are really sorry. That way at least I wont have all this negative thoughts in my head, no anger in my heart and no hate in my life. Ill still be mad for what they did but I wont be angry and filled with hate you understand what I saying girl? Hmmm. Maybe he matured and realize his mistake. Again I can be wrong and I can just be hoping that he try to make it up to you so you wont have this negativity inside you. Because you deserved better then just a lame plan “im sorry“ no-no, that’s not going to cut it.

Anyways you said you want to move on with your life but it doesn’t seem to be easy. Sound like you been holding a lot of anger in witch is bad for you. If your really want to move on you sometimes have to face your evils from the past and lay the problem to rest. You cant moved forward by pushing it to the back of your mind and hopping to forget about it. Because it will never go away. And with out knowing it your anger slowly start to build because of it. If he is trying to make it up to you why not hear him out. It might be hard but you got to be strong and face it what I mean by strong is don’t let him give you a lame im sorry and that’s it you tell him he better come up with something 100 times better then that. And when you do you might be able to resolve some of the hate you have. And you might be able to lay the problem to rest and bring in a more positive energy. To much hat is never a good thing. Of course he might not even try. What a looser why is he even going to email you and wish you a happy bday if he not going to try and mend your broken heart that he broke. Such a PIG UHH. Sorry im really a depress, contradicting and emotional person. And am really angry with guys like that. You might not want to hear from him but he have to make it right. GUHHHH.

I don’t know if im even being any help when I cant even deal with my own problem. Any ways best of luck and I hope you find a way to get all that hate out. And sorry for the long read when I get in to it I get in to it you feel me girl.