Thanks for your encouragement guys

I'm glad that you all had positive experiences with T after you expressed your anger. I have told him via email before that I was angry with him, but I store all my hurt and anger up and when it does finally come out its like a volcano exploding so I worry it will be too much for T to tolerate- that I will be really pushing his limits.

I have also sent him nasty emails telling him how much I hate him, and he has still been there and wanted to know why I felt like that. So I guess there is evidence that he will be ok with it, but I am always quite passive and never really speak up so its quite scary.

I just have this image in my mind that I am standing in his office yelling and screaming at him and not being able to control myself, and he is sitting in his chair just watching the horror unfold and he says that he cannot tolerate such behaviour and that he has all he can for me and that I need to leave.

I really need to get this out because I have been holding it in, so maybe I could tell him at the beginning of the session that I feel very angry and hurt by him and that I feel like shouting and screaming at him. Maybe if I warn him how I feel he will be able to help me. I dont know.