today i feel as if someone is reaching down deep inside my soul and reaching my very existence out. I know many many people will celebrate today as a day to be with their dad , to hug him to have cook outs to do all those things I used to do with my dad. to them I say hold him close, tell him how much you love him, tell him every day,, not just today, but every day.

Then there are those who have no contact with their dad for whatever reason there may be who wishes they did , i say to you, im sorry you feel that loss , though that loss is different than what is caused by death, it is a grief and for your pain today, i say, i feel you.

Then there are those who have contact with their dad's who have to spend time with him who don't want to spend time with him for whatever reason, to you i say, you have a choice...make a choice , then live with that choice, make that choice ...and decide if your choice is what you want and what you need in your life

With that said

Today, is not a good day for me, my emotions are this, pure sadness , heart break and the desire and longing to be with my dad, i would give up anything to have just 5 minutes with my dad today..I mean ANYTHING!!! If only! if only! if only! So you all excuse me today if i have an emotional breakdown.

hugs
karren